A Grateful Life Lived

If I trust God is all I need and He is good, why do I turn away?

I’ve asked myself that question countless times in my years of life. Simply put, it’s a matter of my doubt and sinful desires. But on a deeper level: my own waywardness continues to surprise and disappoint me. Surely I know God is worthy of all our praise! Still, my heart wanders (if you’re reading this, I’d guess you can relate). I wrote something last month in reflection of my true desires.

God, for the first time in a long while, I am focused more on my heart than on seeking correction in the hearts of others. That's how it ought to be.

Oh God, make me a daughter who shines Your light,
(not self-righteous pride)
Make me a wife who loves my husband fiercly
(not a woman who seeks to "fix" or tear down)
Make me a Christian who exudes Your joy
(not one who exudes the pain or lingering anger of trauma)
Make me a runner who delights in You
(not one who delights in self-manipulation, punishment, or earning my worth)
Make me a writer and thinker who sets her mind on glorious things above
(not my own emotions or esteem)
Make me a woman who values and honors her body
(not a woman who worships it)
Make me more like You, Father.

If you want to reflect further on this, maybe think of what you want God to change in your heart and life. . .how you want to refocus on who He made you to be. Cheering you on!

Love,

Hannah